I didn't want the experience of making a baby to be rushed, or full of negative emotions. I didn't want to become pregnant and feel like I was going through it by myself. I wanted my best friend there, my husband.
While not every moment was good through the last eight months, I know in my heart that the waiting has all been for a reason. If we weren't in a situation to wait, my husband would still be in a job that took all his time and I would still be working at a job I started to hate.
We are now settling into our new routine, one that allows us time together. Time is important in starting a family and I am very excited that our time to try for a family is getting closer.
Why three months and not now? I sometimes ask that question to myself. I would love for it to happen now, or even just start but I just started a new job, insurance has not kicked in yet and in order for you to have FMLA protection, you have to be at your job a year. It could happen now and I would be ecstatic, but then I would only get to spend 6 weeks with my child instead of 12. That is something that I really would love, being a first time mom and having to eventually go back to work. I know that you can't plan everything and I am not trying to, but if I can have just a little more time before I would have to leave my baby, I will definitely try to take it!
So for the next three months I am going to make sure to treat my body right, feed my body right, rest and make it the best little oven that it can be for a healthy bean! Just writing about it makes me smile. There really is nothing so beautiful as creating another life. I can't wait until I can make my husband a father.
How could you not want to make that smiling face a daddy?!?